Nollywood actress, Tonto Dikeh has opened up on her past struggle with depression and how music producers, Don Jazzy and Tee Billz, ‘rescued’ her when
Nollywood actress, Tonto Dikeh has opened up on her past struggle with depression and how music producers, Don Jazzy and Tee Billz, ‘rescued’ her when she was suicidal, a decade ago. The actress revealed this in an Instagram post while reacting to the video of a Nigerian-American identified as Izuchukwu Madubueze who reportedly died by suicide after he was wrongly accused of sexual harassment.
According to the movie star, the pain got so bad that she began to believe God didn’t love her. She also revealed that she picked the perfect day to end her life. Recalling the incident that led to the attempted suicide, the River-State-born actress said, “This was me 9/10 years ago, I’m here because I believed there was much more to life than my situation. I wanted to badly believe God didn’t hate me, I wanted to badly stop the hurt but it just kept coming so strong. I knew I was ready, I mean the pain was excruciating.
“Today was a perfect day to die I said. God spared me, God showed me how much love he had for me that day. Shoutout to @teebillz323 @donjazzy for coming to my rescue, I honestly pray for you every day. Thank you can never be enough but THANK YOU”.
The 35-year-old actress had also opened up on past struggles with suicidal tendencies over the weekend during an Instagram live chat with journalist and publisher, Dele Momodu, the CEO of Ovation International on Sunday.
“About 11 years ago, I was super suicidal. I talk about it ’cause I’m one person who can’t be shamed. You can’t shame a shameless person. I’ve had suicidal tendencies before,” the actress narrated.
“I fell into the wrong crowd, with the wrong people. I was just a total mess and didn’t know how to go about it. I thought that if I was no more, it would be better rather than suffer all these. I’ve been sick in my life but depression is the only sickness I do not wish for anybody, not even my enemy. It’s wild and crazy. It destroys you. I sought medical help, I talked to psychologists. I went to the U.S., did a six months course (therapy). Even here (in Nigeria), I have a shrink I go to every two months. Mental health is serious. If we all get diagnosed, over 85 per cent of us have mental issues.”